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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 31, 2018

Last day of May! It went by quick. I am pretty pleased with the results of the challenge. I only skipped three days. Considering i hadn’t blogged for two years prior to this month i’d call it an improvement.

Ideally i would like to get in the habit of posting from my desktop. Typing on my phone is the worst. I’m going to keep posting daily and trying to get better.

May is Mental Health Awareness month and i wanted to write something about my own mental health quirks. I’ve dealt with anxiety and OCD since i was a kid and over the years i’ve learned how to kind of manage it. I’ve tried some antidepressants but they didn’t help my anxiety and actually made other stuff worse. Xanax helps.

The worst thing is not being able to drive thanks to my agoraphobia. It’s really isolating and nothing i’ve tried has helped yet. But there’s still hope!

We’re all struggling to be our best self and sometimes we look at others and feel like we don’t measure up. Jane reminded me that we can’t compare ourselves to others, only to ourselves. That’s a good thing to remember.

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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 30, 2018

My mom texted me today to see if i still had my tiny trailer blog and how could she see it. It reminded me that when i switched hosts, i totally forgot to back my blog up. It re-reminded me, actually because i did know this but just forgot.

So i set aside what i was doing and painstakingly copied and pasted my posts from the internet archives aka the “Wayback Machine”, and that took like two and a half hours. It’s still not right because all the photos link back to the internet archives, but good enough so my mom could see it.

I texted her to let her know it was back up and she replied that she was talking with the woman who does her hair and told her i have a tiny trailer, and the woman wanted to see pictures of it. This information would have saved me some time, as i would have directed them to Instagram. But at least the tiny trailer blog is live again. And there were some good posts about some really great trips.

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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 29, 2018

I slept in today. I probably would’ve gone to bed early tonight too but Greg had a school board meeting which lasted until 10 o’clock, so I waited up for him. My whole day was pretty much spent doing chores.

While we were on vacation, we stopped at a truck stop that had wild rose hedges as landscaping, so I cut off a stem. I don’t feel bad about taking these kind of flowers because the landscaper obviously had been trimming them with a hedge trimmer.

By the time we got to camp, the poor thing was pretty wilted but I stuck it in a cup of water anyway, and the darn thing perked up and over the next few days two little buds opened up into pretty pink roses. i brought them home, and today i pressed them into my travel journal.

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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 28, 2018

When i started this project, i assumed i would get into a new morning routine of writing first thing. Instead, i cultivated a habit of posting at the very last minute from bed every night, and it was a good habit for a while.

I should have known the morning thing wouldn’t work. I’m not a morning person. The night thing has problems like typing this on my phone, but at least i slipped it pretty easily to my night time routine.

Then camping, then i was too tired, blah blah blah. Excuses, excuses.

Habits are tricky. I have a huge problem maintaining routine. It almost never becomes natural. The only two habits i do consistently are brushing my teeth before bed, and taking a bite out of a sandwich as soon as i make it, although that one might be a compulsion. I brush my teeth in the morning too, but not as part of a routine.

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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 25, 2018

I haven’t done anything creative in so long and it’s driving me crazy. I feel like i’m stuck in a cycle of drudgery. I have a goal but it often gets pushed aside so i can deal with the day to day stuff and truly, sometimes i am so tired of working on this goal, i allow that to happen.

I think i need to give myself a day of creative exploration to get some juice. I’m pretty drained right now.

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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 24, 2018

We’re home. We’re tired. Whitney Portal is a beautiful place to camp.

It’s been like two years since we’ve camped in our tiny trailer. Time flies whether you’re having fun or not, so have fun.

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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 23, 2018

We thought about going home today, a day early, but then we decided to stay and I’m glad we did because we had a great day. Started out with breakfast down by the creek and while we were sitting there some old guy came up and started fishing and caught a gorgeous rainbow trout in like one minute.

We hung out down there forever, just really living in the moment, watching the tiny waterfalls, and fully experiencing peace.

Lola was having a good day. The weather was warmer, so she was sniffing around, climbing over roots and rocks.

We took a ride down the mountain to the turn out where we park to get cell signal so we can check in. The colors of the Panamint Range to the east are pretty spectacular.

We went back to explore Whitney Falls now that the weather was better.  Pretty decent Falls, I must say. Lola was having a great time playing adventure dog, and I made like a dozen slo-mo videos of the falls.

Greg got an awesome fire going when we got back to camp and while we cooked our campfire dinner, we started packing up so we could get an early start on our journey home tomorrow.



Red Scorpio Diaries – May 22, 2018

Today, Greg went on a hike up to Lone Pine Lake but I stayed at the trailer because I’m having a hard time breathing at this altitude and didn’t feel like walking uphill for three hours. I just tidied up the trailer and wrote in my journal and did some sketches and looked out the windows at the forest.

Lola and I took a little walk around the campground. When Greg got back, we cooked dinner over the campfire which is one of my favorite parts of camping.

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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 21, 2018

I broke my streak yesterday. And I was pretty bummed about it. I knew we weren’t going to have any signal at the campground so I wouldn’t be able to post on my blog or Instagram but I still planned to write the post anyway and keep the streak going, but it just kinda didn’t happen. I’ve gotten into the habit of posting from my phone while in bed at like 11:30 every night and since we don’t have signal, I’m not looking at my phone in bed. And you wouldn’t even know this if I didn’t tell you because I didn’t have signal, so I couldn’t. but this is about honesty and openness, so I wasn’t gonna fake it.

It snowed today! We weren’t expecting it. The weather called for a chance of showers so we were prepared for a little bit of rain and it was so gray off in the distance we were pretty sure it was gonna be a rainy day.

We went up to the Whitney Portal store to have pancakes for breakfast, but I guess the water isn’t working so they had to close the kitchen. I was really in the mood for pancakes so it was kind of a bummer. Since we were there, we thought we’d walk around and check out the pond and the surrounding area but when we left the store it started hailing tiny little hail and lots of it. By the time we got back to camp, the hail was pea sized and coming down hard.

I made breakfast outside on our camp stove. We’d brought a canopy, figuring it would be pretty wet and knowing we would be cooking outside a lot. So I cooked spam and grilled cheese and tomato sandwiches under the canopy and the hail turn to snow and blanketed the whole area in white fluff. It was pretty magical.

After breakfast we went down to the creek and took some pictures of the snow along the banks. It was kind of a trip to see it so different than it looked earlier in the morning when we had our coffee there.

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Red Scorpio Diaries – May 19, 2018

I planned today so carefully, down to the smallest step, but something out of my control screwed everything up.

Fortunately, it all worked out. I got my two rings dropped of at the fairgrounds just in the nick of time, we got the truck packed up for our trip, and we’re all ready to hit the road.

I don’t know if i’ll be able to post here while we’re at the campground. I’m still going to write the posts on Instagram @redscorpiodiaries if you want to follow there. I think that will still count as keeping the streak going.